the official worship site

ZAK SPEARS BAD BOYS POOL PARTY INTERVIEW

ZAK SPEARS BAD BOYS POOL PARTY INTERVIEW - by Cockring reporter Dan - April 2002

Umm… does this guy even need an introduction? You've all drooled over that furry chest and ball-wrenching deep voice. During the Bad Boys Pool Party weekend in Palm Springs recently, I found myself in a private conversation with the oh-so-woof Zak Spears. During that conversation, I found out 1) he was born in Chicago and 2) he'd be happy to do an interview for cockring.org readers. Step up and say "hello", fans. But make that "Hello, Sir".

Cockring:  What are your stats? (age, height, "shoe size", etc.)

Zak:  Real age, 37 and loving it, 6'2" 224 lbs., working towards 240. Shoe size 12 (no kidding), XL hands, brown hair, blue-green eyes that change depending on my moods. Deep voice, duh. Hairy, I would like to think muscular. Tattoo on right shoulder and left buttock. PA though my cock. Planning on having my tongue and nipples done soon.

Is there any down side to having a Prince Albert?

Zak:  None what so ever. I find it sexy, playful and very erotic. I am having my tongue done soon.

We've all heard about Will Clark's piercing, with you holding his hand. Do you have anything to add to his description of the event?

Zak:  It's all true. I created a monster.  (Laughter).  Now he has more piercings. Will was so cute, he had this look in his eyes as if he was about to be gutted. He was a real trooper and is a good friend.

I was surprised to learn you were born in Chicago. I have never seen it elsewhere. Would you like to give us a chronology? 

Zak:  I was born in Chicago but my parents had the short sightedness to move to Minnesota when I was very young. I didn't like it there. It wasn't a good time in my life. I prefer Chicago - the people are cool, polite, the city is great, there is a lot to do. The gay community seems very supportive as well. I attend the IML (International Mr. Leather) contest event every year. I love it. There are amazing people in the leather community, supportive, helpful, accepting, open minded, more so than I have personally experienced in any other of the gay groups.

You're based in Los Angeles now, right? Is that more-or-less permanent?

Zak:  Yes, I am based in Los Angeles, and as far as I am concerned it is permanent. I love California a lot. It has everything I want. The only other places I would move to at this time are Germany, Brazil or England.

Last I heard you were a mechanic in your day job. Is that still true?

Zak:  I was. I am licensed as a diesel mechanic and in the building trades as a carpenter. I used to work on the D8 and D10 caterpillars. That is a bulldozer or earthmover. I now am a certified personal trainer and can be contacted through my web page if people are seriously looking for a trainer.

Chi Chi describes discovering you in her book. Is that story pretty much accurate?

Zak:  I haven't read the book. Chi Chi is responsible for getting me into the business and for getting the studios to use me. That is true, but I was the one that actively searched him out. So I guess I discovered him. (Laughter)  I am very proud of this: I am credited as the one model since the 1970's that started the hirsute revolution and getting porn away from the blond, shaved twink look and opening the market for the hirsute models. Now the industry is filled with us. Variety is good, yes?

Yes! How does a nice guy from the Midwest become a gay porn icon? (And stay such a nice guy?)

Zak:  This is going to be a long one. First off I want to say to anyone who thinks porn is not a healthy lifestyle, or can be helpful in one's life, listen closely. I grew up in a good German Catholic family. Very loving and supportive. I came out at the age of 12 to my family, came out publicly in school at 13. I never had a problem or a question as to what I really am or was. My issue was that I never felt that I fit in to any of the categories that school offered. I am very intelligent by most tests offered at that time, but was turned off emotionally by the "brains" or as kids of that age would say the nerds. I wasn't a jock (I was very thin, 6'2" 160 lbs.) so I didn't fit in with them and I didn't party or do drugs, still don't, so I didn't fit in with the "dirt bags" as they were referred to. Coming out at such a young age everyone knew I was gay, as they were all dealing with their own sexualities, and God forbid there should be an oddity in their midst. They found it hard for themselves to accept me. So there weren't too many days when I didn't get called a fag, queer, cocksucker or some other derogatory remarks, even the teachers had a problem. Hearing these things on a regular basis it starts to get to you after a long while. As dramatic as all this may sound to others, I can actually produce calendars of the years I was in school that have checks in them daily. These checks represent the days I got shit for being who I was. My self-esteem failed. If you tell a kid he is stupid often enough, eventually he will believe it himself. I began a solitary-type lifestyle with make believe friends to support me. I isolated myself from my family as often as possible, escaped into movies as most kids did at that age. I told you this was going to be a long one. Cutting to the chase, I began looking at, buying, adult books, Playgirl, etc. I looked at these men and wanted to be them and be with them. They were everything I was not. Beautiful, handsome, muscular, sought after. You get the point. Moving ahead, I had a friend in Minneapolis named Joey Morgan, hot little fucker, no we never dated. I told him that I wanted to do videos and I wanted to meet his friend Chi Chi LaRue. He set it up. I told Chi Chi that I wanted to be the best and the rest as they say is history. Here I am. Through porn I have gained my self-confidence, self-esteem, I am very directed and most importantly have my own acceptance and love. Through all this I have never gotten into drugs, heavy alcohol or escorting and I am still, thank God, HIV-negative. I consider myself very fortunate and lucky.

How many videos have you done? Is there a list on your website?

Zak:  Yes, there is an up to date list on my web site, the link is www.zakspears.com and I believe in total I have done around 64 videos.

Of all your videos, do you have a favorite? That can be the best experience on the set or the best end-result. Or you could answer from both perspectives.

Zak:  My favorites three are "The Wild Ones" (I love and enjoy the leather lifestyle and leather sex above others, it can be very intimate.) And the latest one called "The Joint", which takes place in prison and (cheap plug here) is available on my web site, signed. Also "Summer Fever".

How about least favorite?

Zak:  Too many to mention. I am highly critical of myself, and my work. Off the top of my head, "Hologram" would be one.

Are there any costars in particular you really enjoyed working with?

Zak:  I have a lot of favorites:  Wolff, Buddy Jones, Kyle Kennedy, Alex Martinez, Scott Baldwin, Erik Mann, Brad Stone, Rod Major, etc., etc. The last two had the most beautiful uncut Latin cocks that have ever graced my lips, or ass for that matter. WOOF! I loved them both as people as well. I wish I could get a hold of them again.

Have there been costars from hell?

Zak:  I hated working with Ted Matthews. Boring individual and a lifeless dead fuck. Huge tool? So much for truth in advertising. Trent Reed was a primadonna. Chi Chi had to beg me to continue with the scene against my better judgment; I said I would make it work. I mean, you're there to do a job, and not make people feel like shit or be difficult. Do your job, have fun, suck dick and shut the fuck up. The Jesse Tyler scene went on, and on, and on. He was okay he just couldn't "perform". All the rest of my co-stars were great.

How do you feel about "gay 4 pay" performers in the industry?

Zak:  I feel if you are going to be difficult, not able to perform, unreliable, or have an issue with gay men or in what you are told to do, stay the hell out of OUR business. My personal feeling is how straight can these "boys" be? They suck cock, eat ass, and fuck another guy up the ass or the other way around. Let them play games with themselves. I love the game these dorks play on the set. They suck cock and as soon as the camera stops they start talking about some gash they fucked the night before. I don't want to hear about some make believe broad just to make these confused brats feel better. Talk about losing a hard-on! They are just masking what they really want to be: Bi or Gay. It gives them an excuse to be gay because they are being paid. So they can justify it. Chi Chi, in his speech at the GayVN's two years ago, gave me a great compliment, and said I am credited in the fact that I will not work with "trade". That still goes true.

You've been very versatile on video. (And we love that about you!) How about in your personal life?

Zak:  I am 100% versatile. My position depends on my partner and how we can please one another most. I love banging the hell out of a nice round butt and vice-versa. In leather I am 70% top/30% bottom.

How are things between you and Matthew Rush?

Zak:  Matt and I are unfortunately no longer together, it has nothing to do with personalities. I love Matt very very much, he's a great guy, helpful, supportive, a little pushy at times, but I love him and will always have a special place for him in my heart. He was the first in a long time to get into my heart that deeply. I am very much in love with him. I wish things could have been different. I'd like him back. The distance between us states-wise was one of the real issues, I wouldn't move to the Midwest, my life is great in Los Angeles, and he wouldn't move here. An impasse I guess you would say, but we will always be friends.

Are you a relationship type of guy? In other words, are you "boyfriend material" in your own mind?

Zak:  Absolutely, for the right person. I am a no nonsense type of guy. I don't put up with games, wishy washy people or bullshit. Treat me with respect and you will get the same in return. Don't, and you're out the door. I'm not into one-night fuck scenes either, I always feel like hell afterwards. I guess I have a conscience. Go figure.

Are you as much of an animal in bed with your lover as you are on screen?

Zak:  Worse, but it depends on the other person. The orgasms are for real as well as the growling, I am getting deeper and deeper into the leather lifestyle. It is very important to me. I find it opens my mind, soul and heart the deeper I get in it. So save your soul if you come my way.

Is there anyone working today you really WANT to work with but haven't?

Zak:  Johnny Ryder (very hot boy), George Vidanov, Bryce London, Matt Skyler, Karl Tenner, I met Carlos Morales "woof", at IML this year and this guy is beautiful from the word go. Brett Wilde (I want to make one of them my leather butt boy), Thom Barron, Addison Scott, Bryce Pierce, Sebastian Gronoff. Just about most of the muscular Czech models, Jake Hart (great guy, very sweet), there are a few more. If any of these guy are so called straight, cross them off the list. (Laughter)

You took a hiatus from the industry. Why?

Zak:  At the time I thought I had fallen in love with someone and needed to take a break to concentrate on the relationship at hand. I am very glad to be back. In all honesty, I missed the industry a lot. My original reason for leaving was sound and as with most things it turned out to be the right thing. I love the process of making videos.

Do you plan to stay a while? (We hope!)

Zak:  Yes, I am in the process of reinventing Zak. I hope to be here for quite a while. I am not going anywhere.

You mentioned earlier you've never gotten into escorting. Do you think you ever will?

Zak:  ABSOLUTELY NOT! NEVER HAVE NEVER WILL! To each their own, it isn't for me. I respect the guys who do escort just for being able to do it. I laugh at the "buyers" who constantly hound me on the Internet for not "sharing myself". I feel with the videos, fundraisers and the fact that I am always happy to talk with fans, I share myself enough. I always will find a separation between doing videos and escorting. I don't care how others view it. If they want it, they can buy the videos. It's good to want.

How do you feel about barebacking in porn?

Zak:  Oh, this is going to piss off a lot of people. Well, tough shit. I am very angry that in this day and age and with all the shit going on in the world that some of the studios would have such a total disregard for human life and the lives of us as models just because they can turn a profit. I am also extremely disappointed by the lack of caring the porn stars that participate in these videos have for themselves and others. I don't care if they are positive or not. That is not the issue. I have no problem being with or working with a positive person. I believe that a person whom is positive can be re-infected and re-infect another person with a stronger strain. It is hard enough to stay healthy even with the proper medication, without going around re-infecting yourself and others. I believe in my heart that it is our (the adult industry's) responsibility to teach the new or younger gay men the importance and necessity of safe sex and do it in a way that is erotic, fun and hot. Just because these idiots pretend that AIDS is not around doesn't mean it doesn't exist. People can send hate mail all they want to and they will still be wrong and nothing they say will or can change my mind on this subject. If people want to bareback, so be it, just don't involve me. But consider the pain you will inflict on yourself, your friends and family and our community. What are you teaching people just to make a buck? A sad tradeoff. I hate wearing the damn things, but I have to if I want to stay negative and protect the person I am with as well. This is, if you hadn't figured it out yet, the kind version of what I was going to originally say. You don't want to know the other.

What's next for Zak Spears?

Zak:  I want to start my own label. I want to do the movies that everyone else is scared to produce. I want to do video with my, as my friends say, my Dark Side. I want to bring about a better understanding for the main stream gay into the leather lifestyle, just to bring about an awareness that we are not all freaks and that we are still very loving and caring people. I like a story line, if people don't well, they can fast forward the video. All this will be done with safe sex practices.

What would cockring.org readers be surprised to know about Zak Spears?

Zak:  Well, let's see. I am heavily into leather, SM BD practices, electricity, fisting, heavy butt play etc. I don't know if this is a surprise or not but here it is. I became aware, as I call it, last year and it had been leading up to this point for over nine years. It happened when I was in the audience at the 2001 IML contest. It hit me like a shock; I had always felt like there was something very strong missing from my life. After hearing the speeches of the contestants I had found what I was searching for, for so long. It was like a second coming out. I had finally found a gay community that was based on love, companionship, and camaraderie.

Is there anything you'd like fans to know about you that they might not know?

Zak:  I want people to stop being afraid or intimidated by me. I am no different than anyone else. No better and no worse. That goes for anyone in my industry. You see us as strong individuals with no fear. We have all the same insecurities and fears that you do, like being shut down when we approach someone we like. I had a cool experience at the pool party this year. I have a very good friend, director Jim Steel who is also friend to Ken Ryker. He asked me to approach him and say hello. Ken is a great guy, very kind and very unaffected by all the notoriety. He would make a good platonic friend. I have no interest in having sex with Ken (seriously) but I was nervous as anyone would be approaching someone new. He was very polite and gracious. The gal he was with was very protective, I thought her funny. The point is we all have the same crap in our heads that we aren't good enough. If you see me on the street, as long as you are respectful to my feeling and others, please come up and say 'Hello'. Please don't judge us based on some of the fucked up apples in the business. We all aren't going to give an attitude when approached.

What do you do to relax?

Zak:  I go to the gun and rifle range weekly. I am highly ranked. It helps me relax. I have been working out like crazy trying to get bigger. I enjoy most movies. I am a big James Bond Fan. I even received a private tour of Pinewood Studios when I was last there. They were filming "The World Is Not Enough". It was so cool. I love to travel. I go to London/Europe every two years and the Hawaiian Islands yearly. I have a house that keeps me busy with little projects and I have two beautiful dogs.

What kind of dogs do you have?

Zak:  Chow Chows. Two of them.

Did you pick them for their breed?

Zak:  I think they look like little bears. They are also very quiet dogs, very loyal and protective.

Did you rescue them from a shelter?

Zak:  No, I was given the first one by my ex of three years as a Christmas present. The other I bought for a companion for her and I wanted another all the same.

Is it difficult caring for pets when you travel?

Zak:  I am very protective of boyfriends, family, and even more so of my dogs. They are very well taken care of. I have an incredible vet who has great people working for them so I leave the dogs with them. I hate leaving them, they are like my kids. I always get upset when I have to go on a trip.

What's the funniest thing that's happened to you in the industry?

Zak:  I was having one of my orgasms during a scene and I broke a glass tabletop with my head. The other was the camera man was doing an underneath shot, getting the fucking from floor level, and I got carried away and packed the guy's butt with too much lube and a huge blob came out of his tush and landed on the camera guy's chest. (Laughter). He was very professional, he excused himself and went out to the truck and changed. I love that story.

Do you consider yourself a star?

Zak:  I am told that I am. I consider myself a type of celebrity. There is no denying that I am. I guess when you can't walk into any restaurant whether it is straight or gay and not have someone point you out, you're some sort of celebrity. I don't think anyone in this business deserves to get an attitude about his status. You're only here for a short time and until a guy with a bigger dick, better body or can take more up his hole comes around. Take most things with a grain of salt, be humble and kind and try to make people happy.

That you do, my friend. This has been great! Any final words? 

Zak:  In closing, I want to thank Will Clark for all his hard work, and Dan for his kindness and giving me this opportunity. A very special thanks to all the great fans and for their support throughout the years. All my love, Zak.

THANKS, ZAK! Err … THANK YOU SIR!

You can contact Zak through his website at www.zakspears.com

Copyright © 2001, 2002 Will Clark (http://www.willclarkusa.com). All rights reserved. All duplication of this material in any form is prohibited.